Dark and light

I have not written for a while. I found that each time I wrote my blog, something got me down or got in my way. A fear, an anxiety, a worry. Is this coincidence? Is there something working against me openly talking about God? When I see the trainloads of awesome spiritual people I know who are so burnt by church that they can't even hear the word without exploding or retreating, I can't help but wonder, is there a force that works against God? If you have the luxury of black and white faith of course you believe in evil. It's a concept I have wanted to ignore.

But on the journey I am now on, I am growing stronger in my own willingness to trust that when I say "God, I surrender", something magic happens and it changes me and my relationships. Yet I would be a liar if I didn't acknowledge that at the same time, I have never experienced more trials, disappointments, upsets and attacks on my core beliefs. For example, I have always had a deep sense of God. The first time that has been seriously missing has been at times in the last few months, since I have taken the step of faith to live life with less man made security.

Liberals like me have long wanted to hang on to the good bits of spirtuality whilst burying our heads in the sand about the dark side. We have ostracized anyone who talks of evil. Maybe that's why it is so powerfully at work in our society every day. And with so many good people becoming spiritually disabled, who will speak up against it? I am reluctantly coming to believe that there is a war between good and evil, dark and light, and one of the ways the dark succeeds is to deny its own existence. Any wonder anyone who speaks up is such a threat.

The bible says, the dark can never conquer the light. But it never says the darkness will just disappear.