God will provide, ask and you shall receive. Or so we are told. Is this true? I feel like I could do with a hand with the providing some times, so I'm up for the challenge, I'll call it the "Does God provide" challenge.
I am building a business and the opportunity comes up to go to a conference. I can't afford it and it feels selfish to spend so much on my development. Yet I have this longing, this sense of invitation, this sense of opportunity, this sense of "I will provide". I need to find $8000. I do something I have never done in my life. I put it on credit card. I keep building my business, but I can't see where that money will come from in the time frame. I try to trust and not worry. I'm not very good at it though.
Time is ticking, two weeks to go, money's not here, yet I know several times we have got down to the wire on money and it has always turned up the next day. It is part of my reprogramming,and I am grateful for it, but it's new and uncomfortable. This is bigger than my previous challenges, and it's optional, and I put us here, what on earth was I thinking.
I am with a client and I get a text from home. "Guess what, just got paid family tax (a tax benefit we never been eligible for before).
Guess how much?
Yep. $8000.
Coincidence?
Maybe if this was the first time it happened, but there have been so many like this I can't even remember them all. One week we are down to the wire, we are invited to a friends birthday dinner, we agree to go even though we don't have the money but we love our friend, someone unexpectedly pays for us. One time we were nearly out of money, a big consulting job fell in my lap out of the blue, started immediately, paid fast. One week we are down to our last few dollars, a new client signs on and pays immediately.
What do I take out of this? I am enough. Not me, the great I AM. My sense is God is neither a tight arse nor obsessed with making us billionaires. God is abundance, abundant beauty, love, time, friendship, generosity...and yes, money... if only we will ask and then be willing to receive. A different mindset to the one I have lived in for much of my life.
Does God provide? Yep God passed the challenge, I think I still have a way to go.
